Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Calf Hurts In Ski Boot

Return

There was little to watch on TV that night. Just to read, a library and even a full book, as if to say that they did not want to affect anything. It was sheer boredom, a world of boredom. Going out? "No I'm busy tonight!" Was the unison reply, from one week to one part, certainly came to the wake, but then disappeared. All. It hurt all that solitude, but a house without his usual screaming was weird. Not to say that he put to silence, there was no need now, they were all silent in the soul and it is not playing with the dog or philosophize about the market, why the world was falling apart, about why Auditors did not come back to why we should all die in duemiladodici. Sure
a house without him was sad, and unable to bear more of the silence he took the coat and rushed there in the darkness of the night, alone.
"Nowhere to go, to get away from that absurd silence .." He thought, "No person in the world who can understand what I am now trying, no one that I can help you feel better. No reason to continue to move after all. "
had already come a long way from home, in your ears with a slow, melodic music that seemed to be made specifically for certain moments .. "The highway is alive tonight .. .." sang the voice deep and underneath a slight sound of an accordion, and he was transported around a campfire, warming himself with people dressed in rags, without fear of the cold. Then he opened his eyes.
"And if .. Everything is shut down? "It was on
of a bridge, there were so many in a town like that, which seemed to calm hung over the water, on which you could spread a pale moon, whose reflection stretched to the horizon beyond the most distant boats. No street light there, with its shining light that had made them all disappear. He knew they were there to bring comfort to some lost dog or to disturb the sleep of a homeless man nearby, but simply could not see them. His eyes looked at the reflection of the moon, if only to raise them would have liked to be groped for an outrage too great, had no right to look at certain splendor, now that he was lost in the dark. He had no right to look people in their happiness, and normalcy in their hatred, now that he could no longer feel these emotions. And then looking at the sea. Fall would be easy, but watched the sea, perhaps the toughest choice of his life.
There, perfect, melancholy, to give a reflection of a reality that did not have the courage to look, that's why the sea was going so well. And then he understood. There was something worse than what was happening to him, had lost everything in life as "an item" and was now totally alone with his thoughts.
But it was there, and the world would not be finished for him, not even his.
"Because I believe that the end of the world," he said, "will be when we no longer have to look at a sea, a place to breathe, and someone to think about."

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Master Bathrooms No Door

A gift for all

He was cold, my butt was hurting and could not stand the sight of those plants, but at least there was the stripper.

is that his roommate approaches her, handing her a spade full of champagne in the grip of big laughs, and maybe even a little shine. The music was so high that even the tone of noise laughing in his face assumed he was deaf, even if he had seen with their ears plugged would have sworn that she was the background noise that exceeded the opening of the pavilion, despite if only the noisy kitchen night.

Yet she and her friend laughed and relaxed, while the passing of yet another drink evening. Months were not coming out of college, had too much studying and too little room for fun. He no longer even a kid, I preferred another little stupid that he had no ambitions and possessed of plenty of free time. To get us something then, he wondered.

While she spent the night and the music began increasingly to let go of her spirit with the holiday, which he found it difficult not because it was not pretty, indeed, but for his total distrust of anyone not familiar with at least two years . He still remembered the first months spent in college, when he thought of his roommate as the next Miss prof like murder or sexual predators (wrong?).

now wanted to change lifestyle, evenings that you do not expect ever to do, where do not know anyone and no one knows os'importa you are perfect, and decided to take the plunge. He got up, went to the cube and set his eyes on the stripper for a few seconds, not interested at all, but alcohol does automatically. He went to a group of girls with whom he had only spoken a few times a year in college, and began to follow their speeches: shoes, quellodellasezionenuovacheierimihaguardatostranoedèproprioungranfico, series, quelladellasezionenuovachestadietroaquellochemihaguardatostranoedèproprioungranficocheselaprendolaammazzo, vibrator new shoes.

He felt attracted to shoes and especially from the explanations show, while asking what it was a vibrator, but it did not interest her much. Then he heard behind him called, was his roommate with two boys arm in arm, were the strippers before, those on the cube. Now they were wearing only a dressing gown and had no idea what else. The presented

Manuel, Brazil, lending, who offered her two drinks and then ..

All I remember was "I did not study for tomorrow ..", but the next day woke up and was the last of his problems. A week after he left the university, eleven months after his mother was growing a new baby and four years later she died of AIDS.

Happy Women's Day to all the ladies navigate the world.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

What's Happened With The Kelly Family

Are you a horse

Do not read if you're impressionable, please.

Now that I read this the only image in my mind goes to pot on the fire just now, the emptiness fork fight against the thousands of white haze from the bubble boiling. Although it was already cooked, the heat emanating from the pot of pasta is still living on my skin, burned and fresh, the heat became water on my face.

Then I hear, and I have to turn to the TV. A female get older, and more could not define it, he spoke of his work, his good work, its good work to purify women from temptation. Why else would run a woman behind the men, and this is not good. The woman should be enough for her husband, she said.

In talking to the camera was all excited, with a kind of anxiety was trying to explain the details of his work .. keep it one, I cut the part that sticks out .. "but I had a look that is suited him . As for trying to look professional, in his eyes there was always a spark of hatred, fierce hatred for those who had done ".. do what is right! .." And now back on others. Holding a piece of paper rather malleable, made a few ritual gestures showed me how to do. How would you purify a woman. And the only thing that I was capable of feeling and nausea, severe nausea that made me lose track of the words. And the fork in his endless struggle quiet dew in my mind was overwhelmed by the image of a butcher, with an operating room table of the film along the walls and unnatural darkness, darkness that seemed to move in its own mystery. And I saw a woman, two women and no more that were approaching, and I loved this woman with all my heart, even if it never existed, hoping to save not because I know that is not in my power, but to help to live. With that presumption then, as if someone was in need of my advice to address such a situation. And the nausea increased, I saw her move on that cold slab of metal that had to be a stretcher, and I was locked behind a glass, even the same image created by my mind wanted to remember how little can do. And then it's over, the dark tones of the room, the ocher of the walls disappeared, along with the smell of mildew on the walls, and my wrists were cold, nausea crazy now had the better of me. And then I went back to look at that lady, but I could not. With a last look I tried to figure out if that was the determination, madness or hate, then I turned off the TV.

is the envy to make bad people? The desire for revenge? The desire to deprive others of what you can not have? It haunts me because the nausea?

I loved, and I will not rest until it is safe. They are meant to run as a ghost for eternity.